A Box Of Oreos With A Cup Of Tea...

Fri, 07 Nov 2008 15:24:52 GMT

i fucked up my layout. =/

Thu, 30 Oct 2008 14:00:53 GMT

Job interview on monday!
Wish me luck.
=)

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!

Wed, 21 May 2008 12:50:43 GMT

so college fucked up.
they didn't enter me for the exams.
well except one.
but fuck that.
So now i have to get a job.
which is guess isn't really that bad.
it means i get money.
but i also means I have to pay rent until I can save up for a flat
or some thing.
I intend on saving up for Dexter S1 DVDs =)
Oh & nice hat , Jamie. ;P
I forget your name is an awesome song. <3

I hope Inez found what some posters for me.
<3
love her.

anyway. i'm off to job hunt and tell my mother the great news that i'm dropping college. techincally it was her idea.
i'm not doing a 3rd 1st year.
college fucked up. i'm complaining. Motherfuckers.

Mon, 19 May 2008 14:50:28 GMT

I'm also thinking of getting my ears pierced...
yeah.. i don't have 'em pierced.
once when i was little my gran wanted to get 'em piecred but my mom said no.
but i want some pretty earrings.lol.

lalalalalala..

Mon, 19 May 2008 14:37:08 GMT

Its super nice outside.
&
I really really want to go to starbucks.
no cash though.
=(
and i would have to travel some miles just to the nearest starbucks which is next to the cinema
which is far away.

omg. me and my mom sat in my room yesterday playing cards + i had to do a tarot reading for her. =/
we were so bored, we did some mother /daughter bonding time.
urgh.
I'm re reading my Twilight books. =)

Thu, 15 May 2008 13:13:38 GMT

HARDCANDY.COM
I want nearly everything from this store. but they don't ship internationally. damn fuckers!
I'm so into cute japanese jewellery right now.
I soooo want an oreo necklace. haha.
and this waffle ring. cuz its just adorable!
<3

I also want alot of things from HOTTOPIC.COM & EBTM.CO.UK
waaaahh.
I need some retail therapy.
I just want loads of stuff & a new style. i'm sick of these clothes i'm wearing.
I want nice green dresses and these black boots i saw on hot topic. they were hot hot hot i tell ya!.
=D

Mon, 12 May 2008 14:20:57 GMT

I'm so sick of my mother. Stop trying to analyse me you nutter!.
your the mother, i'm the 18 year old daughter. stay out of my head and my life. I'll do what the fuck i want.

I took some new photos the other day. I didn't realise that I could change the pic size on my camera. =/
duh. i'm stupid..

she turns heads wherever she goes.

Fri, 09 May 2008 14:44:16 GMT

Yesterday I realised that I look good in a dress. especially the colour green, even though my mother hates green.
I can't believe how many faces turned to look at me when i walked into my town to go to the library and pick up some food.
its super hot right now where I live and I love it when its sunny!
All I need is some massive white framed sunglasses & a new bag =)

Hayden Panettiere is my new role model. She is soooo cute & I think she has a great voice.
And I like how shes nearly always snapped with a cup of starbucks coffee. =D
idk but i love it when you see candid photos of "celebritys" eating. oh and i don't like the word celebrity. its sounds stupid. =/

Steal my sunshine.

Wed, 07 May 2008 14:16:07 GMT

LOOK!. lots and lots of sunshine. No clouds.
I wanna go and wear my green dress and window shop.
No tan though.
I hate tans.
I like my ghostly skin.
I think I might watch my Charmed DVDs tonight.
Before Desperate Housewives & Dexter <3

mom got me a bubblegum machine.
always wanted one of 'em.
takes blooming ages for the gum to come out though.

omg. I'm starving.
where are my Oreos?

A Day In May.

Tue, 06 May 2008 15:50:43 GMT

So I just watched the teaser trailer for Twlight & I'm a huge fan of the books.
but the TT for it just didn't do it for me. I thought maybes Patterson would be a good Edward but I'm not so sure anymore.
And Kristen isn't that bad at playing Bella. but i guess I just have to wait until December to make up my mind.
& i'm so looking forward to the new 4th book. =D

urgh. everything is pissing me off.

I realise that:
I hate college.
I don't want to go to college.
I hate it when my mother complains about financial problems.
I want to talk to my friend more but I don't know what to say to him
I don't know what I want to do with my life.
I need money.
I don't care about alot of things.
one of 'em is proberly you.
& I have a crush on Desmond Harrington. ha.
I make stupid subject entries.
I'm ugly.
& I'm super duper lazy.
I hardly eat.
I'm not getting any thinner.
I think I have something wrong with me.
love isn't coming for me.
my life sucks.

=D ma new cousin!!!

Tue, 06 May 2008 09:25:15 GMT

Aminah Elliott. Born 1st of May 2008.

Fri, 02 May 2008 10:45:15 GMT

My auntie gave birth yesterday to a baby girl.
I have a new cousin!
I'm so excited. can't wait to see her.

Wed, 30 Apr 2008 14:25:46 GMT

Where are my friends when I need 'em. =/
omg. I feel like dying. my stomach hurts and I feel too hot but i'm cold.
Need Fruit smoothie now.
stalker has been delt with. finally.
pink extentions in ma hair look awesome.
& I want Rose McGowans log bag, combat boots and lipstick.

Mon, 28 Apr 2008 11:52:55 GMT

omgg. like does this guy ever stop asking me out!!! back the fuck off! I don't want you!

Fri, 25 Apr 2008 15:26:15 GMT

I'm just sick and tired of everything and everybody.

Thu, 10 Apr 2008 12:56:29 GMT

Kristen Bell is <3

Random

my skins rant.
I'm watching skins tonight cuz i missed it on monday and i already know that Chris dies. I proberly cry this time round. cuz he was my favourite like everyone will agree with me that he was full of awesomeness!
I think my favourites are Cassie, maxxie , Chris and Effy.I love effys style, chris's humor and cassies struggle with eating etc and maxxie..is just awesome.
I don't like sid, although there are times when i was like awwww. epecially when he broke down crying in tonys arms when his dad died.
michelle can fuck herself. i hate her. but she speaks great spanish. =) I'm not really a jal fan but her and chris were <3 and I like wonky tony. =) Anwar is an idiot tbh and sketch is super creepy, shes a love and hate character. If I missed out any main character then theres proberly a reason why.. like. i don't care for them...
But honestly. why kill chris! it was just wrong. wrong. wrong!
Rant over.

I'm currently reading the 1st sisterhood of the traveling pants book cuz i've read the second. =)
but i really want to read the book that cassie reads the one by Atwood. can't find it in the library though.
and my next book to read is Another one bites the dust by Jennifer Rardin.. looks interesting.
and like everyone else.. I can't wait for the 4th twilight series book and the new book which is written in Edwards point of view.
i don't usually read that much but i get into one of my reading moods and tend to read about 7 books in 3 days. =/

I had to buy a new pair of headphones today cuz the ones i got 3 months ago started to break on me. this is like my 5th pair of headphones. its really cheesing me off. wow. i said cheesing... let me rephrase this. i'm fucking mad that i had to pay £1 for fucking headphones! XD
yeah. cheap headphones but they work fine for like 4 months. i cba to spend more than £5 for a pair.
blegh.
i'm writing about shit all but i don't give a fuck.
Watched Dexter and Desperate Housewives last night. Lynette on weed is funny.
and i can't go without 2 days of Dexter. Friggin love that guy! especially when he faces the camera and does his little smile. =)
I'm practically in love with an anti hero who happens to be a serial killer. I'm weird.

Thu, 10 Apr 2008 12:30:24 GMT

I get my glasses next week. =D

And I'm really into gaelic/ folk music right now. =/
& i cheated on ma tomb raider game. with a walkthrough. usually i don't cheat on games.
haha.
oh well.

Wed, 09 Apr 2008 15:07:30 GMT

I've only eaten grapes and OJ today.
more grapes later when I'm watching Desperate Housewives.
maybes i'll read a book or something.

And 2 tunes that always cheer me up when i'm feeling down:

True Romance Theme//You're So Cool// Hans Zimmer
&
Send me on my way// Rusted Root.
<3

ILY.. elke & jamie. =)

Wed, 09 Apr 2008 12:54:59 GMT

Urgh!. I'm soo pissed off today.
nothing is working!
& i need a new USB stick.
fucking thing is broken...
Technology sucks.
and this baby near me won't shut the fuck up.

Tue, 08 Apr 2008 14:42:33 GMT

ok. so today i was online window shopping. yup.
and i friggin want everything on hot topic. =)
to0 bad i don't have any money.
dammit.
I should get a job. =/

Tue, 08 Apr 2008 09:51:37 GMT

why are bananas bent? =/
lol.

Mon, 07 Apr 2008 15:29:56 GMT

I'm being fucking harassed by some bloke..
LEAVE ME ALONE!
Seriously. I don't give a cows bollocks about you and your sex talks!..
Fucking talk to me again and i'll hunt you down and staple your eyes and mouth shut.
and then cut off your hands and slowly make my way down to your dick.
you fucking twat!

Mon, 07 Apr 2008 11:20:41 GMT

I got all soggy from the snow. =(

=/

Fri, 04 Apr 2008 13:10:39 GMT

you may think i'm alittle bit stupid for doing this. but i don't eat anything at all from the time i wake up till about 6:30pm. & then i only eat my dinner, which is quite small and usually fills me up straight away. & lots of glasses of OJ or water. I've lost quite abit of weight recently and i'm gonna keep doing it.
my estimated intake of calories everyday is about 500 -700 calories. and i under eat by half a week. but its not all my fault. Its just how i ended up. i'm no where near thin enough to be anorexic or to have an official eating disorder.
My mom asks me if i want to eat. its not the eating that bothers me its trying to keep busy so i don't notice the hunger pangs.
usually sleeping helps the most. i can sleep till 3 in the afternoon. or be on the computer for most of the day and not eat.

2 year ago when i had family problems my mom would comfort eat and i was the other way round. i pretty much starved myself and i lost so much weight but since then i put most of it back on and i feel ugly and disgusting.
I can see some changes on my body like the top of my arms and the shape of my waist and booty.
and its nice.
I just need to write this down. cause not alot of people know this.

my friend is currently on a soup diet. =/ yuck.
cause she wants to lose her tummy and that before her wedding next year.
i thought about going on the baked bean diet but i don't think i could stand the aftermath.
and if i stay doing what i'm doing now. i'll be at my perfect weight by summer. =)
I've lost 1/2 a stone in a week. and then i lost the other 1/2 a couple of weeks later.
so i've lost a stone. i have a slow motabolism and its really hard to lose weight etc. so its harder to lose it now. but everytime i go for a shower I weight myself and i've always lost a pound or something.
I can't fast for a whole day, although i almost did. but it makes me feel faint and i hate that.
once i ate under 300 calories. I felt quite good about it. and i think my mom has noticed that i count calories alot etc.
but she thinks i'm just trying to lose more weight. she doesn't realise i don't eat when i'm in college etc. shes hardly ever around to see me eat in the house and then she accuses me of eating everything. I think not!

anyway. sorry for rambling on abit.
like i said. i just needed to get it out of my system.
i'm so tired right now.
and my tummy hurts.

ew. i ate chips the other day and they didn't agree with me. I hardly eat chips but it was the only thing left to eat in the cupboard. literally.
YUCK!.

you should see my dad. I think he's waaaaaay beyond anorexic and he doesn't even know it. hes just bone and veins. he looks like a really thin version of Ian Beale from eastenders. LMAO.

You know what.

Fri, 04 Apr 2008 11:32:55 GMT

I care.
You should talk to me more, about anything.. I miss our conversations.